Tick tock tick tock

I'm truly at a loss for words. We are STILL in a waiting game. We were supposed to hear back regarding the Denver position today but now we have to wait until FRIDAY. This is putting me on edge...like I'm not already there. The past few weeks have really been trying for me (and Bill). I'm not a patient person...really and these weeks that have passed without answers have driven me insane and it seems to want to go on for a bit longer. I'm trying to keep my head up and spirits high but considering my current physical state (pregnant), I'm having a hard time of keeping my emotions intact every day. I know that Heavenly Father is in control but being that I'm human, I'm constantly questioning why I'm going through this trial at this exact moment. I mean...I'm about to give birth and am impatient on that as it is and now all of this job drama. I feel like I'm at my wits end each day and yet, I am still alive and somewhat sane. None of this makes sense, I'm sure but I'm feeling like I need to let it out on the computer because I'm tired of crying in real life. Please pray this all gets resolved...soon...for my sanity (and Bill's).

I'm off to go cry again. I'll be done with my pity party soon...I hope ;)

Because I'm still pregnant...

and have nothing better to do ;)

About Bill and I...

How long did you date? We met December 18, 2000 and were married March 1, 2001. Yeah...quick.
Who eats more? Me but I'm pregnant so I have an excuse, right?
Who said “I love you” first? He said it on New Year's Eve (yes, only 2 weeks after we met). I knew I loved him already too.
Who is taller? He is.
Who is smarter? Like I even need to answer that question. ;)
Whose temper is worse? MINE....by far. It's calmed down a lot but can still rise quickly.
Who does the laundry? Me with occasional help from Bill
Who sleeps on the right side of the bed? Are we in bed or looking at the bed? If we are in bed, then Bill sleeps on the right.
Who pays the bills? I do...since day 1 although we've been trying to do the bills together lately.
Who cooks dinner? Me
Who drives when you are together? Most of the time, him but I scare easily so I've been doing it a lot lately....hahahahaha
Who is more stubborn? I admit I am WAY more stubborn. I blame my Mom.
Who kissed who first? He kissed me, after he told me he loved me!
Who is the first to admit when they are wrong? Both of us are good about this.
Whose parents do you see the most? Mine....usually once a week. His Mom lives in DC and his Dad in Alabama.
Who proposed? I don't think there was a proposal persay. We kind of just got married.
Who is more sensitive? *raises hand*
Who has more friends? Me but my friends are his friends.
Who has more siblings? He does but they are all half siblings.
Who wears the pants in the family? ME ME ME ME

Laurie D.....I'm tagging you. Your turn to answer these questions ;)

More of the same

More of the waiting game. So Bill had his interview in Dallas for the Denver position. Apparently, it went VERY well but not well enough to offer him the job on the spot. The owner has to talk to the other two owners before making a decision. This "should" be done by Monday or Tuesday...so we are still on job waiting watch. Have I mentioned that I'm not a very patient person...especially lately?

:(

36 week appt

Had my 36 week appointment today (I'm officially 36 weeks on Friday). Everything is looking great. I'm 2cm dilated but still "thick". We had an ultrasound done and Doc says baby is about 6lbs but there's a 1lb margin of error so she's between 5 and 7lbs. Whatever the case, HOLY COW! It's starting to get close, eh? Another cool thing was that she confirmed that it is a girl...not that we didn't already know that but the confirmation of "Oh yeah...check out her labia!" was great for me. You hear those horror stories and they sit in the back of your mind...well, my mind for months.

Soooo....if I go into labor now, they won't stop it. Of course, I could be dilated 2cm for weeks but I'm hoping not too long. I'm ready to have this baby...we are ready to meet her. I'm scared Bill won't be around for her birth so I wish we could plan it but we can't so we'll just wait....and wait...and wait.....

Hugs.

Sick

and tired. Actually, I AM sick with a cold. It's funny (not really). In my past three pregnancies, I've caught a cold everytime in my last month. What is that? Insult to injury? Maybe a lesson in appreciating my body when it's "normal?" I woke up the other night with a super dry and sore throat and just thought "You've GOT to be kidding me." Apparently, He wasn't. So I'm going to complain. I'm pregnant and can do that, right? I am so uncomfortable and irritable as it is...add a cold and man, you've got one pleasant woman on your hands. I'm surprised that my family hasn't run off to a hotel yet. Sigh. I know...it's almost over...but not soon enough for me.

Jensen Beach

We drove down to South Florida to check out one of our potential new home areas. Before we left, we dropped by Jensen Beach so the boys could see the ocean...perhaps for one last time if we are headed West.

(Sariah was visiting with my parents that day)

Closer

It's been confirmed. Bill flies out for his interview on the 25th. It's in Dallas but it's for the Denver position. I'm so stinkin' excited. We really think he'll get this position and as much as I'll miss Florida (the people anyway), I'm ready for a change...to start a new chapter. Bill is on to bigger and better things. I've heard that Denver is a great place to raise a family. The weather is gorgeous (well...when it's not snowing). The scenery incredible. I mean, hello...it's a MILE above sea level! Yeah....I'm hoping we get it...bad. If not, it's South Florida for us, which is fine but not my first choice.

We're going to be busy over the next few weeks. If I don't respond right away to your emails or calls, please understand. We are getting ready for Samantha's arrival and getting ready to move...amongst other things.

Hugs to you all for your love, support and concern!

Will post photos later...

Patience...

or lack thereof. I've found that throughout my life, I go through different "waves" when it comes to patience. Some waves are times when I can't believe the abundance of patience I have. I feel as if anything can happen and I can tolerate it. The kids can be turds and I can handle it. I am forced to wait something out and I deal with it in stride. Let me state for the record, this IS NOT one of those waves. I am in a "I have to know what is going on about everything RIGHT NOW" stage and my patience with life is extremely limited. I know that Heavenly Father is testing me right now and I'm failing miserably. I'm trying. I swear I am but failing nonetheless. I feel like I HAVE to know what is going on with Bill's job searches right this second but we won't have final confirmation of where we are headed until April 24th. I want to have this baby RIGHT NOW but know I can't until she's ready. I want my kids to BEHAVE but that ain't happening. I want things to happen RIGHT NOW but NOTHING seems to be going my way. Sigh. Maybe I'm just a selfish person? I like to think that isn't the case but right now, not much makes sense.

I'm rambling. My pregnant brain has hit it's wall...again. I'll stop while I'm behind. ;) Ha.

Hope you are all having a wonderful Monday.

Peace of Mind?

Not quite yet but we are getting there. Bill had his interview in South Florida yesterday and was offered the job to be GM of two stores on the spot. Fabulous salary and good benefits. What's the problem? We are waiting to hear on the Denver position. After the interview, Bill called up the other company and basically explained the situation to the owner...that he had received a job offer and was kind of wanting to see if they were really interested in him. The owner called back almost immediately and said YES. Looks like they are flying him out early next week for a face-to-face interview. They are looking for someone to start by Mid-May. I know the pay would be good and the benefits would be excellent. As much as I would hate to leave my friends and parents behind, Colorado sounds like such a great place to raise kids and I'm so SICK of the Florida heat. ;) Sigh....decisions decisions.

At this point, it's all wait and see until after the interview next week. It seems like forever but I know that once we make our decision, things will move incredibly fast. I guess I should start packing up the house now, huh? Start saying my good-byes? I can't believe the horrific timing of all of this. We have made the decision that no matter what happens, the kids and I will stay until I have the baby and kids are close enough to the end of school to not be a big deal pulling them out. My head is spinning a billion miles an hour thinking about all. My emotions...hello, I'm pregnant...my emotions are all out of whack. One minute I'm scared out of my mind, the next I'm panicking, and then I'm just nuts. I know I'm not, but I feel alone sometimes. Why do I say that? Because as a wife, I know that I'll be making a lot of the arrangements alone. Not that Bill won't help but I'm going to WANT him to focus on his new job and I feel it's my responsibility to do it all myself. It's my fault, I know, for having that mentality, but hey...that's me.

I am grateful that my Love HAS received a great job offer so soon after finding out about the layoff. He's blessed to be the awesome business man that he is and that other companies recognize that. He would be such an amazing asset to anyone. Yeah...I'm biased and bragging, but he's my husband, so I can do that. I have a feeling that these two companies will have a "fight" over him which is great and I know that we'll make the best decision for us as Heavenly Father is truly guiding us in this...

Thank you for your emails of support, hope and love.

Can't we all just get along?

Actually, we do! My ex-husband and his wife...well, I consider them friends. I wish we lived closer so we could get together more often. I know...that's probably weird to a lot of you, but it works for us and we are happy about it! Anyway, we had the pleasure of going over to his parents house last Sunday for a little bar-b-que. We left Sariah afterwards so she could spend a few days with her other family over Spring Break. Here are a few images from the day:

Sariah's brother:

Sariah's other brother (yeah..she's got a lot of them!):

Sariah, myself and Charlie (the ex):

Sariah's 2 Moms:

Sariah's 2 Dads:


Sariah, Charlie & Alice:

Here or There

This will be an interesting week for our family. Some of you already know this...Bill is being laid off and has until the end of May to find a new job. I fear his boss will let go of him sooner but that's another story. Bill is currently talking with two companies. One position is in South Florida and the other position is in Denver, CO. Yes, this means moving...either while pregnant or with a newborn. Can I tell you I'm terrified? If it were any other time, I'd be more than up for the challenge. I've never been to CO but from everything I've heard and read, it sounds like a delightful place to raise a family. If only it weren't 27 hours and 22 minutes away.

Anyway, Bill has a phone interview today for the position in CO and a face-to-face for the job in South Florida. Please wish us luck. We are just praying that we hear God's promptings and do His Will.

Aside from that drama, I'm just about 34 weeks along. In the past two days, something has changed and I'm feeling an awful lot of pressure "down there" and have had more backache than ever. Things are changing. My body is starting to get ready for the big event. We are pretty much all ready for her arrival. I'd like to get a few more diapers and wipes before she arrives but we have all the other necessities. :)

Kids are back in school today from Spring Break. I love my kids but man, oh, man...I'm happy to have a little more peace in the house. The two boys are all about irritating each other which in turn irritates me. It's so quiet now. :D

Will post photos later...

The Need to Blog

There have been many times where I want to blog about personal life but don't feel it appropriate to do so on my "business" blog so I thought it time to create a family blog again :)

At the moment, all I want to do is sleep and NOT blog so I'll leave it with this. I'm just about 34 weeks pregnant and dying to just have the baby already. Sigh.

More to come later. Sorry for the ultra boring blog post.