I haven't been to Church in a while and have felt the Spirit quietly but definitely sliding away...especially lately with everything going, I feel my patience has shortened, my temper heightened and my sanity lacking. I haven't been praying as much and certainly not reading, thus being an overall bad Mom and example to my children. Thus being a bad example to myself.
I find it funny however, how Heavenly Father then plants the seed back into the heart. How he uses others to plant that seed. See, I have a dear friend who I'm about to leave, who has been a shining example of who I want to be. She doesn't give herself the credit she deserves but I think of her as Super Mom, Wife and Friend. She does what is asked of her in Church (she is Primary president), she makes an effort to do FHE with her family each week, she cooks, she cleans, she prays, she plays piano, she loves her family, she reads, she takes care of her friends and without a doubt, the Spirit is with her. I know that Heavenly Father has put her in my life to be an example to me and oh how I'm grateful for that. When I am around her, that seed starts to sprout again and the Spirit knocks me in the head...so to speak. You know who you are, dear. Yes, you. I will miss you but I know that you are in my life for a long time to come, thanks to Heavenly Father....
Another thing that happened is I went over to Monique's blog which I haven't been to in a few weeks and saw her posting which lead me to FINALLY read Elder Ballard's talk on Motherhood. I REALLY needed to read this today...to remind me that there will be trying times as a Mom but that's ok. To try and cherish those special moments more which I need to do. I know Heavenly Father led me there today and I am grateful for that.
Anyway, sorry to get sappy but I'm in a sappy mood. Reflecting on the week past and look to the week ahead...feeling overwhelmed but I need to remember that HE is there...I just need to call on him.
I find it funny however, how Heavenly Father then plants the seed back into the heart. How he uses others to plant that seed. See, I have a dear friend who I'm about to leave, who has been a shining example of who I want to be. She doesn't give herself the credit she deserves but I think of her as Super Mom, Wife and Friend. She does what is asked of her in Church (she is Primary president), she makes an effort to do FHE with her family each week, she cooks, she cleans, she prays, she plays piano, she loves her family, she reads, she takes care of her friends and without a doubt, the Spirit is with her. I know that Heavenly Father has put her in my life to be an example to me and oh how I'm grateful for that. When I am around her, that seed starts to sprout again and the Spirit knocks me in the head...so to speak. You know who you are, dear. Yes, you. I will miss you but I know that you are in my life for a long time to come, thanks to Heavenly Father....
Another thing that happened is I went over to Monique's blog which I haven't been to in a few weeks and saw her posting which lead me to FINALLY read Elder Ballard's talk on Motherhood. I REALLY needed to read this today...to remind me that there will be trying times as a Mom but that's ok. To try and cherish those special moments more which I need to do. I know Heavenly Father led me there today and I am grateful for that.
Anyway, sorry to get sappy but I'm in a sappy mood. Reflecting on the week past and look to the week ahead...feeling overwhelmed but I need to remember that HE is there...I just need to call on him.
1 Comments:
Dear Liz! I am so happy you read that talk. I could kinda tell you were a free spirit type (in comparrison to the more straight laced LDS girls.)
I have to say, an old friend of mine brought up that we were told in a couple of conferences ago to use our blogs to share our testimonies...which to me seemed too weird, but when he reminded me of this I started thinking about what level of openess I would be comfortable with and given that level, what would I share? So my little post about Elder Ballard's talk was the beginning for me.
You know you actually shared your testimony here by admitting so much about what you desire in life. Hang in there friend, and cultivate the seeds that you wish most to grow :)
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