I've had PPD or the Baby Blues after each of pregnancies and I was hoping that they wouldn't hit me again but with everything that is going on, I'm afraid I'm not able to stop blues from surfacing right now. When I think of the week ahead of me, I cry. When I think of not enjoying Samantha's first few weeks in peace, I cry. When I think of all the work Bill is doing and how much he's missing his new daughter, I cry. When I think of relocating to a new city in just a week, I cry. When I realize that this is the very last time I will ever have a newborn of my own, I cry. When I feel alone, like I do now, I cry. I slow danced with my new daughter yesterday and I cried.
I know what this is and I know it will pass, but frankly, it sucks going through it. I know some of you Moms can relate. I needed to vent this. I needed to sit here and cry while I type this. Bill is my best friend in the world but I can't burden him with my stupid Baby Blues, so now it's yours to see.
:) There, I feel better.
I know what this is and I know it will pass, but frankly, it sucks going through it. I know some of you Moms can relate. I needed to vent this. I needed to sit here and cry while I type this. Bill is my best friend in the world but I can't burden him with my stupid Baby Blues, so now it's yours to see.
:) There, I feel better.
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(((((Elizabeth)))))
I had mild baby blues with Bryce, but I'm wondering if it's not PPD this time around. I know it can be so tough, especially with the special circumstances surrounding you with the move. It's okay to cry (not that you could stop it if you tried). Sending up prayers for you my friend!
You have every right to cry and vent. Don't feel bad or guilty. Just allow yourself to get it all out, allow others (like myself) to help you where we can and trust that it will all work out for the best. You are stronger than you give yourself credit for.
(((Hugs!))) It's not stupid. Even in the best of circumstiances, when you can just sit and stare into your new baby's eyes for hours on end, having a newborn is overhwleming. And you have a LOT going on!! It's okay to cry and feel sad and vent. In fact, it's good. Then we can all tell you we love you and are there for you.
Aww Sweetie,
If there's anything that I can say is when the week is done, you will be where you're supposed to be and you won't feel so rushed. Like Christina said - it's not stupid. It's expected. I had it with my first and then I had to get rid of my cat. I was so emotional over having to get rid of a stupid cat. I can't imagine the stress you are going through. You will be stronger for it. You're kids I'm sure think you can do it all. Cry and vent all you need to. It's the only way to feel better. It's not healthy to keep it in. Hugs to you. Samantha is beautiful by the way!!! You sure do have some great looking kiddos.
I TOTALLY can relate. (((hugs))) It really does suck. It's very hard.
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